Being home again isnt as great as i thought it would be i guess. Sad thing is that I cant help but feel god awful about being such a burden to everyone. I try and do shit for myself but my frikkin foot is killing me 99% of the time. Even when im in bed it hurts... like wtf? ::Sighs:: this isnt easy, and it isnt easy on everyone else. I hate to have to keep asking for them to do shit for me. My kids? i want to just crawl in a hole and die cuz I depend on them so much. What am I going to do when Hector goes off to college? I dont want to go to "assisted" living, however... I have been thinking there has to be a better way. I will never go back to brookhaven id rather jump in front of a bus first.. But, I have been thinking maybe I can get a place in a handicapped community? Something like what Titi Carmen had. Where an aid can come when needed but im pretty much on my own... All i can think of is if its easier to get around the house maybe i could do more....
I am beyond frustrated I need to do something. Brook haven robbed me of my independence.
~B
