I spent the morning under the covers snuggled down with my thoughts.. dreams... I cant .. ::Thinks of how to word this:: I cant tell you how long its been since ive dreamed of "him" But god it felt good... I woke up with tears slipping silently down my cheeks.... He saved me in the dream, stabbed someone in fact.. Someone was trying to hurt us ( long story ) and he saved me, then took me in his arms. Tilted my face up to his with the gentlest of touches... It wasnt like he was a faceless man it was him... I could feel his hand on my cheek, God i love him. He took me into his arms and held me close, among other things. I could smell him, i closed my eyes and inhaled deeply, i knwo i didnt want to wake up. Even now writing this the tears are sliding down my cheeks. Will he ever come to his fuckin senses? Heaven help me i hope he does, the ache in my heart remains even after all this time.
I sit thinking from time to time and I cant help but cry, to myself because whos gonna listen? Who can I talk to? no one really, not even him, not about this.. I love him desperately, with all my heart, he is and will always be my soulmate no matter what happens. Keeper of my heart, i hope he realizes just what he has. Night.
~B
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