A month and a half or so ago, maybe a bit more I almost died, go fig. and tonight i kinda wished they hadnt saved me. This misery burns deep in my heart and its getting no better. Now with the word from the man I adore that he no longer cares about me, or wants to be together, I just wish my misery would end... Why am I still here? Why did they save me ? For what? so I can continue down this god awful path into the void? Im lost, alone and miserable. I wish they had let me bleed to death that night. I know I passed out when I lost blood, I wouldnt have felt a thing. I am sorry to my family for feeling this way but I cant help it. I love you all as well but to live a life alone is just .... There are no words.
~B
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